Tale in Gardening

Homeschooling becomes a fun journey when you use everyday life lessons for teaching.

Last summer we started a fun unit on gardening. We sifted soil, tested it, and found that we have really crappy soil. Great for weeds, horrible for anything else.

Two years ago we positioned a larger pool on top of the grass, that was in our backyard. As you can imagine, all the grass died around that area. Since then, the only thing that has been growing in that area is weeds.

My husband wants a garden so badly, but the amount of work to create an ideal atmosphere for the plants to grow, is very daunting. Isn’t that like our lives though?

If I were to compare my heart to soil, like Jesus did in the Parable of the Sower, I would see that my heart’s soil needs a fair amount of work. The Fruit of the Spirit isn’t what always grows in my heart. Thank you Father for your grace and mercy!

I heard a sermon once on this topic, and the pastor used an acronym for Dirt, and it has stuck with me.

D – Disappointment
I – Insecurity
R – Rejection
T – Trouble

In his sermon, he brought out the concept that in order for Dirt to be conducive for growth, there needs to be death and quite a bit of yucky stuff in it. In relation to our heart’s soil, we need to face the yuck. The trying times, the rejections, and the troubles, for our heart to produce the fruit we are wanting.

That truth isn’t something we really want to hear, we typically want the happy. But if we go back to our gardening illustration, we are fully aware at the amount of work a farmer does before he plants the seed.

So this week, I am leaning into my DIRT moments. Seeing the work that God is doing to create the Fruit, I desperately want to see.

The Stripped Down You

A true identity. If you stripped away all your labels, mom, friend, wife, your work title, what would you be left with?

12 days ago, I could tell you, but I don’t know if I truly believed it for myself. I needed to allow myself to be stripped of certain things that I used, to identify myself.

Jeremiah 1:5 “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart…”

My Heavenly Father knew me BEFORE He formed me. That means to me that I wasn’t a second thought. That He had a “need” and I was the person He planned to use to meet it. Just let that sink in for a moment.

This place we are living in, views status as success. We need to make something of ourselves. All the self improvement statements ring through my head at this moment. I have used them many times to get myself up after a blow to the ego.

Yet, I have begun to realize that no self affirmation statement, no cheer session, can work as well as truly seeing yourself in your God ordained identity.

The one that has, already the Highest Authority’s approval all over it. The one that says, “I bought you with my life, because I love you.” The very Creator that saw you, before He ever made you. I don’t know about you, but no approval from anyone else is needed.

To be complete, approved of, loved, before I even reach a successful status, makes everything else fade into the distance.

I pray you see yourself in the same loving sight. That you are a treasure. His inheritance. No works are needed to achieve this status.

I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.
Ephesians 1:18 NLT

Identity Confusion

I recently was reading a book by Ted Dekker. Typically his books are on the scary/suspenseful side. So, I was surprised when Truth was hitting me hard as I read.

In this particular book, a girl is on a mission to save two worlds. However, the only way she will be able to save these two worlds is to find 5 seals of Truth. They are truths that she has to know deep down and understand for herself. Then, and only then, will she be able to help other people.

Wouldn’t you know, one of those truths focused on her identity issue. At one point in the book, she gets transformed into the very thing she hates. Her failures become visible on the outside, in the form of scaly, puss oozing, grey skin. She begins this cycle of self hatred. Looking at all her failures and mistakes, realizing this mission will never be accomplished by her.

I don’t know about you, but I face days of being in this exact same state. I see the calling that is motherhood, and it is a High calling. The everyday demands can become too much. My temper can flare, despite my best efforts. I can say things that hurt my girls to the core. At the end of the day, I beat myself up with the woulda coulda shoulda game. Thinking that I am not the right mom for my girls.

In this book though, the guide that is helping this girl complete her mission, says something that has rocked my world. “Who are you?” Seems simple enough. Yet in the moment, this girl starts naming off things like failure, gross, not worthy, and others. She has forgotten who she is. He then pushes her deeper. She responds with titles, like daughter, friend, and 49th Mystic. All correct, but not yet the Truth. It takes a strong storm to finally get her to see that she is Almighty God’s Daughter.

In that identity her failures are already forgiven. In that identity she has more power than she could ever dream of, to complete the mission laid out in front of her. In that identity she has been fully approved of and loved.

This identity is what I am learning to lean more on. Yes, I am a Mom. Yes, I am a wife. Yes, I am a friend. Yes, I am a daughter. The list goes on and on. But, I cannot be any of those without removing those “masks” first, and seeing Me. The Me that is in Christ.

Approval Disease

I feel a possible book coming out of this, but that will definitely be a God thing. English, grammar, punctuation, has never been my strong suit.

Hey my name is Gina and I am a recovering people pleaser. Maybe you know of someone that struggles with this disease. You probably wouldn’t classify it as a disease, unless you have struggled with it. It can wreck your life if you cannot rewire your brain.

What do I mean by that? My world for the last few years of my life has been wrapped up in meeting others’ needs to gain their approval. Saying Yes to almost everything. Projects, little errands, answering endless phone calls, all in the name of this approval disease.

Facebook and Instagram created this HUGE snowball effect in my life. Watching other’s posts get more likes, more comments, and straight up more traction. Meanwhile, I was lucky to get 1 or 2. It would hit me like a ton of bricks, like a smack in the face. I couldn’t understand what they were doing that was so different. I began analyzing, at times copying their methods, appealing to the masses. It was such a sickness.

Then, almost a month ago, I got this deep, deep feeling that I needed to take a break from social media. I had done these breaks before, they would last like 2 days. But, God was asking for 21 days!!! 21 days without approval. Now ya have to know something, I use social media for my business. This was asking a lot. However, I cannot argue with the Almighty God.

I am on day 11. Something that also makes this a very unique experience is, we are currently down to one vehicle. One vehicle that fits 3 people, we are a family of 5. I have not been able to leave my home in 25 days. I have not received what you would call outside approval as well. These 11 days have literally been me and God.

This disease is something that is getting healed very deeply in me. It is rooted in not knowing my true identity. When I say “not knowing,” I know logically my identity is in Jesus Christ. However, living that logic out, wasn’t happening.

I am looking forward to sharing more with you all. This is a recovery process that has been so needed and it has already impacted my life immensely.

Welcome!

Welcome Friend!

This is the place where you will find a regular mom working out this Wellness thing everyday.

This blog page came out of some desperate soul searching prayer. For a few years now, I have been a Wellness teacher with Young Living. I have loved every minute of learning how our bodies and plants work together. Yet, something was missing in my passion for really helping others. I almost felt a bit fake when I taught, and shared.

I took some time and sought God. You will find out as you continue to read my posts, that my Heavenly Father is Everything to me. He is my CEO. He brought a verse to my attention, which then became the inspiration for the name, Stewarding Wellness.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

19 “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

A Steward according to Wikipedia is a person who manages another’s property. According to the verse above, I am not my own, I am God’s. As a Christ follower, that hit me pretty hard. I realized the reason I was feeling fake, was because I was not being a good steward of my Wellness. Yes, I try and buy as much chemical free products as I can. Yes, I take proactive measures for my health with essential oils and supplements. However, that is pretty much where it stopped. I was failing in the eating right, exercising, and a few other areas that one would say falls under Wellness.

So, with all of that out in the open, I felt led to share this journey with others. To encourage others that may be realizing the same. Oh, and to do it in a way that fits any budget. As a one income family, I know the money crunching. I have felt the money struggle with eating healthier. I don’t want Wellness to be linked with the Rich. God says in His Word that we are to be good stewards of Everything that He has given us. I believe that not only includes our finances, but our Wellness too. So, if you are ready to go on a journey with me, stay tuned!